[Honestly, Fujimaru is stressed out over just thinking about talking to Cecil. Or rather, helping Shirayuki talk to Cecil. Basically, the point is that Fujimaru does not want to see Cecil, except that he's going to have to relatively soon. He's feeling calmer than he was yesterday, at least, but he's still kind of upset over the entire thing. Which is stupid, because there are better things to be worked up over, like the upcoming Uzumaki, not some idiotic friendship that's probably already fallen apart.
—And then he's frustrated with himself for having an investment in this 'idiotic friendship', for feeling something over the idea that it might be broken even when he should've burned bridges a long time ago, and the entire thing becomes a vicious cycle.
... Damn it. At this rate, he's going to lose his nerve before the talk with Cecil even happens, and if there's one time that he can't falter, it'll be then. Shirayuki will be counting on him for support, and like hell is he going to show weakness in front of Cecil again.
He doesn't know what he's supposed to do, frankly (does he ever?). But...
"I've got two ears if you do wanna just... I dunno. Rant? Be angry?"
He remembers. He remembers what Sakon said, the offer he made. And though back then, he wasn't angry... he is now. He still isn't sure if he 'wants to talk about it' (not when people have been telling him for years to just accept things the way they were, for his own good or not), but even so, something inside of him urges him to pick up the phone before he leaves the housing block.
Half-hoping that Sakon gets up early, half-hoping that he doesn't so this doesn't happen, Fujimaru calls one of his only friends left in Haven.]
voice; backdated to the morning of 08/03
—And then he's frustrated with himself for having an investment in this 'idiotic friendship', for feeling something over the idea that it might be broken even when he should've burned bridges a long time ago, and the entire thing becomes a vicious cycle.
... Damn it. At this rate, he's going to lose his nerve before the talk with Cecil even happens, and if there's one time that he can't falter, it'll be then. Shirayuki will be counting on him for support, and like hell is he going to show weakness in front of Cecil again.
He doesn't know what he's supposed to do, frankly (does he ever?). But...
"I've got two ears if you do wanna just... I dunno. Rant? Be angry?"
He remembers. He remembers what Sakon said, the offer he made. And though back then, he wasn't angry... he is now. He still isn't sure if he 'wants to talk about it' (not when people have been telling him for years to just accept things the way they were, for his own good or not), but even so, something inside of him urges him to pick up the phone before he leaves the housing block.
Half-hoping that Sakon gets up early, half-hoping that he doesn't so this doesn't happen, Fujimaru calls one of his only friends left in Haven.]
This is Fujimaru. You available?